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I'm Belinda. Plot twist: I'm both a recovering addict AND a substance use disorder clinician. If you'd told me years ago I'd be where I am today, I would've laughed so hard I might've fallen off my barstool. But here we are, and somehow life turned out way better than any high I chased back in the day. I started this blog because we need to cut through all the BS around addiction and recovery. There's enough shame and stigma out there, and I'm pretty much done with it. It's time to get uncomfortable and talk about the stuff nobody wants to talk about. The messy parts. The real parts. Home-wise, I'm living my best chaos in northern Wisconsin with my incredible partner (our family's human rock), two amazing boys (one rocking the autism spectrum), a weirdly lovable dog named Baby Dog, and a cat named Steve. While our neck of the woods is postcard-pretty, we're not immune to the addiction crisis. This blog? It's going to be honest. Sometimes painfully so. Sometimes funny (because if we can't laugh at the darkness, what's the point?). Always real. Welcome to my corner of the internet, where recovery meets reality, and we don't sugarcoat a damn thing.

Tuesday, December 3, 2024

When Your Recovery Feels Like a Bad Netflix Series: Stuck on Repeat

 


When Your Recovery Feels Like a Bad Netflix Series: Stuck on Repeat

Look, we've all been there. One day you're crushing it in recovery, feeling like you've finally got your shit together, and the next thing you know, you're staring at your ceiling fan wondering if it's spinning or if that's just your brain doing somersaults. Welcome to the recovery rut – that special kind of hell where your routine decides to ghost you like a bad Tinder date.

The "Oh Crap, Everything's Falling Apart" Phase

You know what's funny (in that not-really-funny way)? We spend all this time building these perfect little routines, like nourishing our bodies with healthy food, exercise, and consistent sleep schedules – things we probably laughed at during our using days. Then one day, poof – it all goes sideways. Maybe your meditation app unsubscribed itself from you (rude), or your support group started feeling more like a bad reality TV show reunion.

Family: The Ultimate Plot Twist

Let's talk about our families – those well-meaning souls who sometimes help us feel stuck faster than quicksand in recovery boots. Regular family meetings can help keep everyone on the same page, but let's be honest – sometimes these meetings feel like trying to explain TikTok to your grandparents. Frustrating, but necessary.

Breaking Free: The Great Escape Plan

Here's how to bust out of that rut (no prison break tattoos required):

  1. Accept Your Current Situation

    • Yes, you're in a rut. No, the universe isn't conspiring against you (probably).
    • Take a closer look at your goals – are they still serving you, or are they about as useful as a chocolate teapot?
  2. Shake Things Up

    • Mix up your routine – because doing the same thing and expecting different results is... well, you know the rest.
    • Try something new. Worst case scenario? You hate it and have a funny story to tell at your next meeting.
  3. Communication: The Not-So-Secret Weapon

    • Be honest with your support system – they can't read your mind (thank god for that, right?).
    • Use "I" statements instead of "you" statements. Instead of "You're suffocating me," try "I feel overwhelmed." Sounds less dramatic, works better.

Finding Your Recovery Groove Again

Remember those early recovery days when you were trying to figure out who you were without substances? Plot twist: that journey never really ends. Creating a structured schedule offers stability and helps avoid those old behavioral patterns that were about as healthy as a deep-fried stick of butter.

The Bottom Line (Because Every Blog Needs One)

Recovery ruts are like bad haircuts – they're temporary, even though they feel permanent when you're in them. The key is recognizing when you're stuck and having the courage to do something about it. Maybe that means changing your routine, maybe it means having an awkward conversation with your family, or maybe it just means acknowledging that recovery, like life, isn't always going to feel like a motivational poster.

Remember: If you're feeling stuck, you're not broken – you're just due for an upgrade. And unlike your phone's software updates, this one's actually important.

P.S. If all else fails, remember that at least you're not trying to explain to your therapist why you thought buying a pet llama would solve all your problems. (Unless you did that too – in which case, we need to talk.)-Belle-

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